13 April, 2017

Who fucking knew?

For 47 years I thought I had straight hair that often was frizzy.
I had a really good hair cut in January and the stylist told me to find non silicone mousse and try scrunching my hair. A friend at college who is also a stylist told me to look up the curly girl method. I have ordered the book and read up bunches. I also asked friends for input.
It's going to be a long process.

Today, I am super happy with my hair.
This is without curling iron or blow drying. 
I'm still learning. 

30 January, 2017

16 Months

16 months post RNY Gastric Bypass
HW: 315
CW: 217.4

Exercise routine: 

5 miles on Recumbent bike at setting 3
I took 3 days off while recovering. 
I will change it up for February and add hand weights. 

Seeing collar bones
Smaller wedding ring
Noticing more shrinkles
Shoveling snow
Able to pull off knee high boots without unzipping

I had a esophagus ablation last week. Everything came out ok. 
I'll have a biopsy in 2 months and another ablation a bit after that. 
It leaves me with a husky voice and need of a liquid/soft food diet for a bit. 

I'm not as far as I want to be but each day I get a bit closer. Sometimes I get discouraged because I have not met goal. I have to remember this has not been a straight path for me. I have had procedures since the main surgery. I just need to keep my sight on my goals. Failure is not an option

22 January, 2017

Rambles at the beginning of 2017

Welcome 2017!
Yes, I know, I'm late. January is not over yet, so all is still good. 
We woke up to 2017 instead of ringing it in. It was a quiet day and we are good with that. I believe in "start as you wish to go on", so I cast on a new knitting project and Sarge ended up cleaning his pistols. Things we both enjoy doing and hope to do more of during this year. We had Black eyed peas and ham for dinner for luck of the new year. Other than that, it was movie day. Nothing fancy. 
The last couple of weeks have been a bit stressful for us. Transitions with college for me and job for him. Hopefully, soon, I will be in that job place so I can take the stress off him. Between us though, I think we are stronger than ever. 
Any major event can put a strain on a relationship. We have faced huge moves, job changes, deployments, and my weight loss surgery. Every time, we talked our way through it. We have had our ups and downs, but by communicating along the way, we stay on track, together. Each time we are told by someone that the act is statistically supposed to break us apart. I think huge changes in life can break some people apart. I also think that their relationship was not strong before the change and therefore could not withstand that change. If you are able to see the change, communicate about it, and see the positive in it, then you should be able to come out the other side much better than you were before.
We have survived.
Hopefully we will continue to survive.
When I met him, back in 1995, I never thought we would be together this long. In two weeks, we celebrate our 15th wedding anniversary.
I would say yes all over again.
I hope you feel the same about the one you are with.

Stay positive and communicate!

24 December, 2016

Merry Christmas Eve

Merry Christmas Eve! 
The presents are wrapped and the stockings are ready to be filled. 
I talked with a friend yesterday. I'm still not feeling great about how the RD treated me, but I need to not take it personal. 
I am going to refocus. I need to start eating on a schedule again. 
3 meals at certain times- same every day. 
If I am hungry in between and have had my liquids, then I can have a snack. 
I'm going to keep the meals to 50% protein/veg mix. 
Snacks need to be protein rich like a Greek yogurt or cheese. 
I'm going to get popcorn back to being an occasional thing. 
Water and teas need to become my main drinks again. 
I'm going to try to stick to Whole Foods as much as I can. 
1000 calories... I'm not worrying about hunger, as I really don't feel that. It's being more mindful when I am eating. 
I can do this

23 December, 2016

Week 64: The one where I'm pissed

Saw Doctor Foote today. I have to have ablations done to my esophagus. He also told me that by no means should I be at 1400 calories. He has never seen loss of weight to meet goal over 1000. He wants me to drop back down and do what I was doing at 6 months out instead. 
My feelings, I am pissed and hurt. My dietitian knew that I had been frustrated. I did not understand why she was bumping up my carbs. I have lost faith in her and will not be taking information from her anymore. I know I have to see her because it is part of the plan, but I am not going to be sabotaged. I guess I should be thankful that I now know my range to maintain is 1200 calories. I just feel that I have wasted 6 months of my golden period with a dietatian who does not understand RNY surgery. 
I am slowly dropping back to 1000 calories from 1400. I will see the whole team in March and I hope to be in the 100s by then. 
My macros are 1000 calories. 60-80g protein and under 60 carbs. The rest should fall into place. 
Exercise: I just finished a 21 ab workout I am pushing to 31 days. 
I am starting a 21 day butt work out. Squats are my downfall but my ass needs it! 
The ladies at the retreat bought me a recumbent bike. I love it! My goal is 5 miles 3x a week. I also need to get back to the treadmill. I want to put 2 miles 3x a week on it. So the routine will be:
100 crunches
100 squats 
50 push-ups

M-W-F: bike
T-Th-Sa: treadmill
Sunday- total gym. 
I want to bring in the gym more, but I need to work back up to it. 

I'm going to try to channel the anger I feel into my workouts and push through. 
I'm hurt that I cannot trust someone that is supposed to have my best interest, and my health,  at heart. 

The ablation scares me but the doctor told me how easy it is and that I will have a few follow up procedures to make sure it is all taken care of. I do trust him. 

Side note: 
I gave Dr. Foote a pair of hand knit socks as a thank you and Christmas present. 

I gave the team hand knit cowls and scarves. 

22 November, 2016

Week 60

I got into my husband's jeans

Fully zipped and buttoned! 

This is a huge NonScale Victory!! 

I guess I should say why this is important to me. I bought my first pair of Levi's in 8th grade. They were a mens 40/32. Back then, they stamped the size on the back waist patch. I was happy to have jeans, but embarrassed of the size, so I cut the waist tag off. The jeans I have on here are smaller than my first pair of jeans. These are 36/34. 

Getting in my husband's pants, or more to the point of getting him out of them, has never been a problem. Getting into his jeans has long been a goal. I've never been able to wear a boyfriends or husband's clothes, like most girls just take for granted. It's all new to me. 

01 October, 2016

One year

One year follow up
I'm not sure what scale to use. Mine said 215 this morning. The bariatric clinic's said 218 and the sleep doctor's said 220. I think it all has to do with the water I had. Ugh! 
Official weigh in is 218 down from a start one year ago at 315. I could have been heavier before that. I hadn't weighed in except at my yearly appointment in years. 

I talked to a behaviorist, basically a phycologist. She seemed happy about my progress and where my head is after this year. She agrees that it is a mental mind fuck and eventually it will even out. I need to work on my journey and stop seeing everyone who has hit goal and comparing. I will get there eventually. I'm actually happy where I am. 

I talked to the exercise therapist about my worry over my legs. She advised I see my doctor about shin splints or possibly stress fractures. (I have an appointment on Monday) and then she advised me to only go to a 2 incline on my treadmill. She also suggested I get a bigger exercise ball to work out with and gave me a bunch of exercises that won't hurt my legs. I'm also to use that for balance. Cardio 3x a week, Strength 3x a week, balance 3x a week. This will be my routine after I am checked out by the doctor about my legs. Until then, I am to rest, ice, compress, and elevate (RICE). I ordered a ball and pump from Amazon. 

Next, I talk to my dietitian. She is a hoot and has the cutest new baby girl! Awe!!
My macros have changed to 1200 calories, 35% carb, 35% protein, 30% fat. My carbs and fats have been too low. She is going to check on me in two weeks to see if I have gotten more even with my macros. Lately I have been all over the place and I need to even out. Buckle down and get my shit together. It's hard...very hard. I haven't gained since June, but I haven't lost either. 

Finally, I talked to the NP I see every visit. She said I'm on track, just need to keep going. I do take my vitamins regularly and everything looks good. (She had me up my iron a couple weeks ago). When I see my doctor, I do need to ask about getting my hormone levels checked. Other than that, I need to have an upper scope (November 17, 7am) to check my esophagus for Barrett's Disease  http://www.webmd.com/heartburn-gerd/guide/barretts-esophagus-symptoms-causes-and-treatments 

After I saw everyone at the bariatric clinic, I saw my sleep disorder doctor for a check up. My cpap is now fully auto instead of pressurized at 9-12. This is the last step to hopefully being off the machine in about a year. I know it's a process, I hope I will get there. 
My one year date is on the 30th. 
I've come so far and way too fast. 

The best is yet to come!